The Work is Done. Now We Wait…

October 8, 2012

My Running

So we are tapering. My legs feel restless and at night when I try to sleep, my legs want to move. I have been sleeping fantastically while running but the past few days….I am feeling like I need to be MOVING. The other night when I couldn’t fall asleep…I went back out to the livingroom and rolled out my IT band. Ouch.

I will be running on Wednesday and Thursday of this week. For 30 minutes each day. I’m going to run as fast as I can. And see how far I can go.

Race date is almost here.

When I started this blog I believe I had exactly 4 months till Race Date. And as of this writing–I have 6 more days. But when I wake up in the morning, that number will be 5. I keep saying this over and over: I am BEYOND excited.

I’ve trained. I’ve shown up to the practices. I put in the work. I’ve found my morning fuel, which is a cliff bar and half a banana. I’ve gotten used to eating the shot blocks. I know how often to drink water and when to drink the sports drink. I’ve broken in my new shoes. I’ve decided to walk for one minute at each mile. I’ve gotten my playlist made. (The first song out will be “The Ghost in You” by the Psychedelic Furs. That song reminds me of 20 years ago, when I made a life changing decision. That’s for another blog.). I’ve had a toenail come off. I’ve gotten a gnarly blister. I’ve made lifelong friends in this deal, and have become closer to other runner friends that I wasn’t quite close to before. I have a regular running buddy weekly date outside of Team in Training. I’m totally interested in what other people are doing WHEN they run and seeing through pictures WHERE they run. I have already signed up for my next half marathon in January. I scheduled my gallbladder surgery for AFTER my Nike Run. I’ve done what the coaches said to do. And I’ve had some soreness that had to heal, like a sore hip and a sore heel.

OH…and I lost 20lbs.

I wake up every morning these days and my first thought is: “I have 6 more days left”. Or whatever the number is. Tomorrow I will be waking up thinking “I have 5 days left”. And then my next thought will be “I’m gonna go weigh myself”.

Which is another blog all in itself as well.

So in 6 more days—I will be running in the Nike Women’s (Half) Marathon. In 2006 when I attempted this the first time–I didn’t take any pictures. This time…I’m taking lots of pictures. Especially one of me surrounded by the firemen that are dressed in tuxedos at the finish line handing me my Tiffany Necklace.

I. Can’t. Wait.

You know that song that says “I left my heart in San Francisco….”? Well if you’ve read any of my previous blogs, you would know that In 2006 when I ran Nike for the first time—my heart was breaking. And perhaps in a way I did leave it there. All shattered, crushed, and broken. The experience was so self-consuming that in all my blogs and writings about this–I’ve never mentioned that when I ran my first half marathon….my 16 year old daughter ran it as well. What kind of mother doesn’t focus on that?? How does a mother forget about a moment like that? How could a mother focus solely on her own breaking heart—and forget that her daughter did this experience with her? Excruciating pain was first and foremost and I was barely able to breathe in those days. I’m so sorry Dani—that the memory I carried with me was me losing my 20 year marriage. I promise if I ever get another chance to run with you–I will take a million pictures and share it with the entire world. I believe in do-overs.

In 6 days…I return to the race that was a huge symbol in my failure as a wife and mother. In 6 days I will return Stronger. Whole. Happy. Exuberant. A more conscious mother. And a success.

Because my success is no longer measured by how much I was UNable to make another person happy. It is measured by the work I have invested in myself to relieve me of the bondage of my past.

What past????

Let’s do this!

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About rsouleret

I am a mother of two beautiful girls. I work full time. And I run. ILML.

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6 Comments on “The Work is Done. Now We Wait…”

  1. Donna Hargis Says:

    Incredible story, incredible journey. And you lost 20? Wow! Congrats!!! (I have not seen you lately, so…. ) And the paragraph about Dani got me teary. I’m so excited for you, not just the actual day but also the experience you have had training for this thing. GO GIRL!!!

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  2. hkbunk Says:

    As always, the writing is from the heart and beautiful. The picture of you and your girls…what perfection in the three of you. ILY and ILML.

    Reply

  3. gail Manley Says:

    I love it! I can’t wait to see the pictures. Know that I will be thinking of you on Sunday as you run.

    Reply

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