The Best Is Yet To Come

June 14, 2012

My Running

I’ve had some great running times and I’ve had some not-so-great running times.   I’ve completed:

  • 2006 Nike Women’s Half Marathon, San Francisco, CA
  • 2006 City of Angels Half Marathon, Los Angeles CA
  • 2007 Eye-Q Trail Half Marathon, Fresno CA
  • 2008 American River Parkway Half Marathon, Sacramento CA
  • 2009 American River Parkway Half Marathon, Sacramento CA
  • 2009 International City Bank Half Marathon, Long Beach CA
  • 2010 Surf City Half Marathon, Huntington Beach CA
  • 2010 International Long Beach Half Marathon, Long Beach CA
  • 2011 Las Vegas Rock ‘n’ Roll Half Marathon, Las Vegas NV

My best finish time was 2:26.  My worst finish time was 3:32.

In each of these half marathons I have never officially trained.   My very first one, I started a training program but was not able to stick with it once the ground started eroding under my marriage.  I was addicted to crossing the finish line so I kept signing up for Half after Half.  Signing up for half marathons was also one of the things that kept me running.  I remember details about each and every Half Marathon.  I remember where I was mentally.  Where I was physically.  Where I was spiritually.

2006 NIKE WOMEN’S HALF:  My marriage was crumbling.  I didn’t have much chance to prepare for the sudden ending of it.  I cried the first 6 miles and I purposely took NO pictures from this weekend.  He moved out the night we came back home.  What a way to celebrate a first time finisher…

2006 CITY OF ANGELS HALF:  I was still in the midst of excruciating pain, mental and emotional.  A song came on around mile 7, and the lyrics went like this:  This is your life.  Are you who you want to be?  This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be?   And I thought “no, this is not who I want to be.  No this is not what I dreamed that it would be”.  Heartbreak is one of the worst and best things in the world.

2007 EYE-Q TRAIL HALF:  I ran for the first 9 miles without stopping.   After not following a training program, that was not a smart thing to do.. Shopping that night at Target was fun on the motorized wheelchair.   Mentally I was wondering how I was ever going to live a normal life.  It was two weeks before Thanksgiving, a holiday I had come to dread.  What used to be my favorite family holiday had turned into just nothing but a big empty day.

2008 AMERICAN RIVER PARKWAY HALF:  The weekend of April 30th (my would be wedding anniversary)  was a weekend I needed to avoid and run away from.  So I signed up for this Half.  I just remember wanting to lay down around mile 10 or 11 in the middle of the path, and just let walkers and runners step over me.  I felt like I could not and would not finish this one!   The sun came out, and I HATE RUNNING IN THE SUN.

2009 AMERICAN RIVER PARKWAY HALF:  Again, I needed to run away the weekend of April 30th.  But this year there had been some changes.  I had moved to a new city about 9 months prior, and I had new friends.  New meetings.  New life.  New job.  And I was smiling again.  I felt I had some hope for a future of happiness.  Although it was only a glimpse at this time, it was more than I had before.  I had been running more and I beat my time from the previous year by 26 minutes.  After the race, I threw my wedding ring into the American River.  I knew I would not need to run away again.  Thank you American River Parkway Half, for being there when I needed you.

2009 INTERNATIONAL CITY BANK HALF:  This one was on my 17th sobriety birthday, and I had friends run and ride thier bike with me the last five miles.  There was a cupcake and a chip waiting for me at the finish line.  I finished this race in 2:26, which is my best time to date.  I was happy with moments of sadness.  But that was better than previous years…..sadness with moments of happiness.  Grief was my constant companion in these days.  But I could feel it slowly dissipating..

2010 Surf City Half:  One of the most boring half marathons I ever did.  I didn’t train, so it seemed even longer.  Running 5 miles facing the hot sun, towards the finish line was not so fun for me.  I really do hate running in the sun.

2010 INTERNATIONAL CITY BANK HALF:  I meant to train for this one.  I didn’t.  By mile 6, I was dying and done.  At mile 7, I got a text from my friend that said “you got this Renee”.  It kept me going a few more miles.  And then at mile 10, a friend was waiting for me to run me in.  And as I was running and dying at the same time, she was cheering and clapping while running with me.  And I thought: “I’m so blessed.  God has taken care of me and I didn’t die from a broken heart.”

2011 LAS VEGAS ROCK ‘N’ ROLL HALF:  Bad experience with this one.  Way too many runners for the course and coming into the finish line and getting stuck in the crowd for an hour barely moving almost sent me into a panic attack.  Running the strip at night was pretty.   I don’t feel the need to ever repeat this one.  I did not train for this one and running in the cold was really hard.

So now I am training with Team in Training and I am finally consistent!  I started training with them about a month ago, but I started consistently running on a schedule TWO months ago.  This is the longest I have ever stuck to a schedule.   I am also doing boot camp three days a week.

I am going back to the race that kicked my ass: The Nike Womens Half.

And I plan to return the favor………and kick ITS ass.

Wish me luck!


About rsouleret

I am a mother of two beautiful girls. I work full time. And I run. ILML.

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2 Comments on “The Best Is Yet To Come”

  1. Gail Manley Says:

    Oh Renee, I am so proud of you! As I sit and read this with tears rolling down my face. You have come a long way my friend! And now I see you have another talent writing what a wonderful gift. Keep this up and…….. Thanks for sharing with me, I feel very lucky to have you in my life. xoxo Me


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